Hi Everyone! I was getting back on track, and somehow I have managed to sabotage myself again.
Its so hard to stay motivated! I so want to get back to where I was, thinking positive and the feeling that you can do anything you set your mind too! It just seems to be getting harder instead of easier, and then you fumble again and cant even manage to pick yourself up. It starts to feel like everything is just too hard. You read wonderful words of inspiration and think yes, then the next minute the words have left you and you cant even remember what they were. You wonder how others keep doing it day after day, and you remember that it use to be you helping to motivate others and you just cant figure out what happened to yourself.

You start to double guess yourself and think maybe I did try to change too many things all at once, even though when you started, you were so positive of the goals you wanted to achieve and they didn’t seem so out of reach.

Im still spinning my wheels, and I say to myself Im not gonna give up. Yet somehow you have totally given up and are just fooling yourself. I don’t know where I am going and cant seem to see the future like I always did. I know I am over thinking things. Im in that rut of saying, ok tomorrow I will step it up and start again, then you don’t. You feel the disappointment in others and feel like you cant face anyone, you know you have not only let yourself down, but everyone!

I have to get over it and just do it, I went to the gym when I was at my heaviest and faced everyone, what makes it different now?

“When life knocks you down, try to land on your back. Because if you can look up, you can get up” ~ Les Brown

Until Later, Bonnie