Happy Halloween everyone! Candy candy candy....................Thank Goodness I am not a sweets girl. Im not too worried about all the candy around because I’d rather have potato chips.
Things have been crazy since I returned from my vacation. My cousin Philip, who is more like a brother to me and at times, a father figure (he was also named after my father and I also have a brother named Philip who we call Duke) had a terrible accident Sunday morning about 5am, a week ago today.........He is in ICU in Christiana Hospital. We are not sure exactly what happened because he is not able to communicate with us and the doctors said he may not even remember because it is a brain injury. We think he must have gotten up to go to the bathroom and his sugar was low, (he is a diabatic) or he was just half asleep, opened the wrong door and fell down the basement steps. He has bleeding in the brain in 2 areas, broke his nose, jaw, fractured both of his eye sockets and there is a problem with his aorta vein in his neck. He has since developed pneumonia and although he is breathing on his own (Thank God) he is on a vent and has a tube going down his throat which is helping to keep is lungs as clear as possible. His temperature is fluctuating up and down, up to 103, but this is also expected due to the pneumonia.
The doctors think he didn’t realize what was happening because the 1st reaction of someone falling is to put their arms out to try and protect themselves from the fall, Philip did not do this because he has no broken bones anywhere but in his face, which took the whole impact of the fall. He had open heart surgery 2 years ago and his heart is strong (Thank God again), that is also when they found out he was also a diabatic, he started on insulin right away.
My family has been keeping a vigil at the hospital since, and Thank God again that I have a huge wonderfully strong family. We have been taking turns and staying with my cousin Susan (Phils wife) as she wouldn’t leave the hospital for the 1st 6 days, we have at least been able to convince her to go to her sisters house at night and sleep in a real bed, and its only 5 minutes away from the hospital so she can get there quickly if need be.....................I will keep you posted but please include Philip in your prayers, as it will be a long recovery either way.
Well as far as Me................I am still eating pretty good but haven’t been to the gym in over 2 months, I went to the doctor on Wednesday and according to their records have lost 32 lbs since my last visit in Sept. 2009. I apparently had gained another 10 lbs from Sept. 2009 to Jan. 2010, which I can totally believe because I was in such a bad place, I did nothing but eat in my depression, and when you don’t move much and eat a lot, it is easy to put on 10 lbs.
I was attempting to take my own food to the hospital, salads and fruit, small cooler full of water, but that didn’t last long! So I am either not eating at all or doing the vending machine thing, not good, but I am aware and changing that too!
I am still not working, as now I also have to take Delaware State boards, DE has recently changed their regulations and are no longer having reciprocity with PA. Im going to have to take my State boards again and will do it soon, as I need to get back to work but am actually grateful Im not working right now so I can be there for my family. I have not forgotten everything I need to do, and I am preparing myself for everything.
No luck with selling my house yet, thinking about maybe renting it out. This year started out being a great year, meeting Sara (my trainer) my friend Rose getting the ball rolling for me. Im not sure what happened but Im not gonna give up. Im gonna step up...................and keep going in a positive direction. Even though I haven’t been working out like I need too, I still feel Im heading in the right direction. I have learned so much about myself and my body over the last 9 months and I can truly say I have made changes that will stay with me forever!
"Walking your talk is a great way to motivate yourself. No one likes to live a lie. Be honest with yourself, and you will find the motivation to do what you advise others to do" ~Vince Poscente
Until Later, Bonnie
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Hello everyone I have been having some good things happening along with the not so good one, but making the best of it. I have kept the weight off, 43 lbs, and believe I have lost a few more.............but I have not been to the gym so check on their scale, which is the one I have been using since day one So that is the one that matters, and I don’t have a scale at home anyway. I am going to the doctor tomorrow and will also see what I weighed a year ago, long before I started my journey. I will keep you posted on that one. My weigh in date for Plexus is January 14, 2011, which really is right around the corner. I may have to pull a “Biggest Loser” move or go to a fat farm or something Lol, just kidding, I know the way to really lose is a life style, and I am doing that and I havent given up.
I went on vacation to Florida with my girlfriends (My YaYa’s) and I did pretty well. We rented bikes for the week and rode 5-6 miles 4 of the days we were there. And I swam a lot, everyday either in the ocean or the pool......... I am definitely happy to exercise while in the water, I love to swim I guess because it doesn’t feel like exercise to me. I also decided to be the designated driver so that everyone could drink and enjoy their selves and I could not only save calories but money. It worked out well, although I must say I drank more last week than I have in a months. I save it for when we were at the condo. We had great weather too
So right now, the goal is the same for the weight loss, but even one pound closer is something Im gonna grab!
"Failure cannot cope with persistence." Napoleon Hill
Until Later, Bonnie
I went on vacation to Florida with my girlfriends (My YaYa’s) and I did pretty well. We rented bikes for the week and rode 5-6 miles 4 of the days we were there. And I swam a lot, everyday either in the ocean or the pool......... I am definitely happy to exercise while in the water, I love to swim I guess because it doesn’t feel like exercise to me. I also decided to be the designated driver so that everyone could drink and enjoy their selves and I could not only save calories but money. It worked out well, although I must say I drank more last week than I have in a months. I save it for when we were at the condo. We had great weather too
So right now, the goal is the same for the weight loss, but even one pound closer is something Im gonna grab!
"Failure cannot cope with persistence." Napoleon Hill
Until Later, Bonnie
Monday, October 11, 2010
Hello everyone! Well, let me see, where do I start today. I am feeling and doing a lot better than my last entry. I am doing my best to re-frame and remind myself even though I may have stalled a bit, I can still do this. I have lost another 2lbs, so I am happy about that, brings me to a new total of 43lbs, still haven’t stepped it up like I surely need to, but Im not falling behind again.
It also makes me realize how important your trainer is to your success. I use to think, who needs a trainer, either your gonna do it or your not, but I have come to realize having a good trainer is key. My trainer Sara can motivate me like no other. I haven’t worked out with her most of the summer. I thought I would be ok without her for awhile and didn’t want her to worry about me. I have come to realize why and how important they are to reaching your goal. No wonder so many people hire great trainers, not only do they motivate you, but you have someone you have to answer too. Someone who will see changes more than anyone else. Sara’s winning smile and her presence has been greatly missed. I hope to be working out with her again soon I miss you Sara!
I have been working hard getting my house ready and have gotten rid of so much stuff, even though it doesn’t look like it, I can feel it. Actually my basement surely looks a lot different I cant believe how much stuff I have accumulated over the last 12 years living in this house. When I started getting rid of things, I would discover new boxes behind boxes and realized I never unpacked them from when I moved in. Yes, some sentimental stuff, but still just stuff. So I decided to go with my number one rule that I have always used when I go shopping, which is, it has to be 3 reallys! When I shop, I don’t buy it unless I really, really, really want it.
I have know for years that I already had too much “stuff”. This rule has always worked for me and helped me to not buy something I really didnt need. It really does feel good to get rid of things, clean out drawers, closets, it's kind of freeing. It makes me feel more organized, well because I am more organized. I also realized Im not gonna buy any more cleaning supplies until I have used every cleaning product in my cabinets. I have doubles and triples of cleaning products, you forget you even have them, they are in a cabinet all the way in the back and you don’t see them, need to use them. Try it!
“We all need someone who inspires us to do better than we know how.”
- Anonymous
Until Later, Bonnie
It also makes me realize how important your trainer is to your success. I use to think, who needs a trainer, either your gonna do it or your not, but I have come to realize having a good trainer is key. My trainer Sara can motivate me like no other. I haven’t worked out with her most of the summer. I thought I would be ok without her for awhile and didn’t want her to worry about me. I have come to realize why and how important they are to reaching your goal. No wonder so many people hire great trainers, not only do they motivate you, but you have someone you have to answer too. Someone who will see changes more than anyone else. Sara’s winning smile and her presence has been greatly missed. I hope to be working out with her again soon I miss you Sara!
I have been working hard getting my house ready and have gotten rid of so much stuff, even though it doesn’t look like it, I can feel it. Actually my basement surely looks a lot different I cant believe how much stuff I have accumulated over the last 12 years living in this house. When I started getting rid of things, I would discover new boxes behind boxes and realized I never unpacked them from when I moved in. Yes, some sentimental stuff, but still just stuff. So I decided to go with my number one rule that I have always used when I go shopping, which is, it has to be 3 reallys! When I shop, I don’t buy it unless I really, really, really want it.
I have know for years that I already had too much “stuff”. This rule has always worked for me and helped me to not buy something I really didnt need. It really does feel good to get rid of things, clean out drawers, closets, it's kind of freeing. It makes me feel more organized, well because I am more organized. I also realized Im not gonna buy any more cleaning supplies until I have used every cleaning product in my cabinets. I have doubles and triples of cleaning products, you forget you even have them, they are in a cabinet all the way in the back and you don’t see them, need to use them. Try it!
“We all need someone who inspires us to do better than we know how.”
- Anonymous
Until Later, Bonnie
Monday, October 4, 2010
Hi Everyone! I was getting back on track, and somehow I have managed to sabotage myself again.
Its so hard to stay motivated! I so want to get back to where I was, thinking positive and the feeling that you can do anything you set your mind too! It just seems to be getting harder instead of easier, and then you fumble again and cant even manage to pick yourself up. It starts to feel like everything is just too hard. You read wonderful words of inspiration and think yes, then the next minute the words have left you and you cant even remember what they were. You wonder how others keep doing it day after day, and you remember that it use to be you helping to motivate others and you just cant figure out what happened to yourself.
You start to double guess yourself and think maybe I did try to change too many things all at once, even though when you started, you were so positive of the goals you wanted to achieve and they didn’t seem so out of reach.
Im still spinning my wheels, and I say to myself Im not gonna give up. Yet somehow you have totally given up and are just fooling yourself. I don’t know where I am going and cant seem to see the future like I always did. I know I am over thinking things. Im in that rut of saying, ok tomorrow I will step it up and start again, then you don’t. You feel the disappointment in others and feel like you cant face anyone, you know you have not only let yourself down, but everyone!
I have to get over it and just do it, I went to the gym when I was at my heaviest and faced everyone, what makes it different now?
“When life knocks you down, try to land on your back. Because if you can look up, you can get up” ~ Les Brown
Until Later, Bonnie
Its so hard to stay motivated! I so want to get back to where I was, thinking positive and the feeling that you can do anything you set your mind too! It just seems to be getting harder instead of easier, and then you fumble again and cant even manage to pick yourself up. It starts to feel like everything is just too hard. You read wonderful words of inspiration and think yes, then the next minute the words have left you and you cant even remember what they were. You wonder how others keep doing it day after day, and you remember that it use to be you helping to motivate others and you just cant figure out what happened to yourself.
You start to double guess yourself and think maybe I did try to change too many things all at once, even though when you started, you were so positive of the goals you wanted to achieve and they didn’t seem so out of reach.
Im still spinning my wheels, and I say to myself Im not gonna give up. Yet somehow you have totally given up and are just fooling yourself. I don’t know where I am going and cant seem to see the future like I always did. I know I am over thinking things. Im in that rut of saying, ok tomorrow I will step it up and start again, then you don’t. You feel the disappointment in others and feel like you cant face anyone, you know you have not only let yourself down, but everyone!
I have to get over it and just do it, I went to the gym when I was at my heaviest and faced everyone, what makes it different now?
“When life knocks you down, try to land on your back. Because if you can look up, you can get up” ~ Les Brown
Until Later, Bonnie
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