Hello again, Hope everyone is doing well. Im embarrassed I have not updated my blog as I should. I’ve had a bad few weeks, Im still in a rut....... I heard a good phrase the other day, they said to change the word Impossible to Im possible I like it, although I never thought everything I am trying to accomplish was impossible, I know it can be done. I just lost my motivation, my energy, my mojo, somewhere along the way. I’ve just become so tired................... Im trying to do all these things, all very important things, changing my career, losing weight, quitting smoking, sell my home to go along with my new income. I lost track of myself once I got the job, I love the job but its not paying the bills, so worry as set in, and old habits have reappeared.

Although none of my old worries were about money, that was one thing I was good with, my money. I didn’t have to worry about stopping for gas and only being able to put in 20.00 in stead of just filling it up...............I never had to worry how much I spent at the grocery store and even got so cocky as to not use coupons anymore. Now, I love coupons And I have learned to not buy something just because I have a coupon, that is a trap

We are also working on my sleep patterns, as I have not been sleeping much. I am exhausted at night but just cant seem to fall asleep, and then I cant get up in the morning when the alarm goes off. I am getting up at 8am everyday now, trying to get back into an early morning routine so that I can fall asleep at night. The late nights have me eating late at night, an old bad habit I can not afford, as my body does need to rest when Im sleeping and we all know that if you eat before you sleep, your body doesn’t rest as it should because its digesting the food you ate all night long.
I have gained back 4-5 pounds in the last 6 weeks and I can really feel it.
I am not happy with myself right now, and am struggling with so many things. I feel as though I am spinning my wheels and going in circles. I have lost something and I need to get it back.

I am so disappointed in myself, I haven’t been exercising like I was, Im not keeping up with my blog as I should, it seems to be getting harder to write than before. I know I will never eat the way I use too again, as I have learned so much from Barbara about food, but I have had fast food (Taco Bell) several times in the last few weeks! I can say its still a big improvement as fast food was 4-5 times a week before I started this journey.

I know everyone platos, but this is not a plato, a plato is when you are still doing everything right and not losing any weight, Im in a bad slump that I am letting get the best of me. Im having a hard time and just cant seem to get motivated again. I need to take action and push myself to do it. Nothing to do but just do it!


Until Later, Bonnie