Hi Everyone Hope everyone is doing better than me Im sorry I haven’t kept up with my blog, I have been in what you may call a “rut”. I must apologize and I need to write weather its good news or not so good news. I have no excuses other than the ones I tell myself, but really none of them are good enough to excuse myself. I did hurt my knees during our pole dancing class Yes I did, and that has lead me to exercise less using my bad knee as an excuse Its now only my right knee that is bothering me, which I have arthritis in both knees, but at this point, only my right knee is still having problems I haven’t been to the gym in a month and have not really missed it Im really struggling with wanting to work out. I was hoping I would get to the point where I felt so good I wouldn’t be able to get through the week without working out, you know how some people just need to work out, are compelled to do so, but that has not happened.

I just had a Birthday, which was wonderful but.........................well it was really good, had a great time, partied with friends, my Mom got me a” workout towel” and said “now get your ass back into the gym” I have been doing my Leslie Sansone tapes a couple times a week. It doesn’t really bother my knees, although everything Sara my trainer had worked out for me didn’t bother my knees either. I guess I was just looking for something to give myself a break and not work out. You have to remember I am someone who has never worked out in my life, ever So it was almost 6 months I did pretty good. I got a job, which did make the commitment harder, but still no question I could still fit in working out. I also got a parking ticket in town, that I have not paid yet, stupid because I could have fought it as the meter was not working at the time I parked, next time I will take a picture lol No energy to fight that one out, why bother as it would cost me more in time and effort. I also suggest you pay it right away or it will double it no time

I also have to get to the gym and weigh myself, I have definitely put a few pounds back on, although I have still been eating pretty good, but have gotten back into the bad habit of eating late at night. I really need to concentrate and work on that again. Its never a good thing to eat late, unless you are starving, which is not the case with me. And with not working out 5-6 days a week, its slowly creeping back my waist line.

Sara, my trainer thinks its time to try me out with Yoga She said it helps with a heavy heart. Sounds like a plan to me A heavy heart is a good way of describing how I have been feeling. The new job is great, I love it, just not busy enough, which means not enough money, which leads to sleepless nights, which leads to a grumpy tired person! I have been cleaning out my house and getting rid of a lot of things, but as far a putting it on the market, well........................its not worth it if I wont come out with enough money to start over, so I am trying to hang on and wait until the market it better! Another scarey thought, and adding to the sleepless nights.

So its time to reframe and really step it up again, I really have no choice, its either wallow in my sorrows or keep fighting. I choose to keep fighting! I also promise to be more diligent in blogging my progress and where Im at in my head as far as what Im trying to accomplish here. Please keep following me and sending me positive energy. I have a lot of people who believe in me, so I just need to believe in myself again.

“It's not what life path you were on in the past that matters, it's the path you are choosing to be on now that's important. Your choice = level of happiness”

Until Later, Bonnie